I endured 35 days without coffee.
It seemed like an eternity…The longest 35 days of my life!
I did it to challenge myself. I gave up coffee and chocolate for 30 days while some friends in the Vinnie Tortorich’s No Sugar No Grains Facebook group gave up dairy for 30 days. My challenge lasted longer than 30 days because I (stupidly!) offered to start my challenge over when someone new joined the 30 day “No Dairy Challenge.”
I’ve always been a “one latte a day” coffee drinker. Rarely would I have more than one. I brew my espresso at home, enjoying my double shot with cinnamon, vanilla extract and a blend of non-dairy milks (soy, homemade nut/rice, and a splash of coconut).
I wanted to try going a full 30 days without coffee to see if I really missed it. In the past, I’ve tried going a few days or even a week without it, but I always ended up going back to my daily habit. I believe it does take at least 30 days to rid the body of addictive substances and establish new habits.
No– It’s not that I thought I had a caffeine addiction. No one would consider my consumption excessive. I do nothing to excess! Balance is my middle name. It’s my astrological sign: Libra.
I may be different than some people. I don’t use coffee to wake me up, or give me energy. Actually– I enjoy my coffee the most when I can sit back and relax with it. I really look forward to my coffee each day. It calms me. I’ve called it “my sweet elixir.” (Read this previous post for proof!)
Even still– part of me wanted to find out if I would feel significantly better without the coffee in my system. The people who give up coffee for good always seem to hype it up! They feel soooo great, blah, blah, blah. I always wondered if that would or could ever be “me.”
I also think that sometimes it’s good to not always get what we want, right when we want it. It’s a form of discipline. It builds mental toughness. It rejects instant gratification…and entitlement.
(Nah!! It just sucks– let’s be honest!)
I gave up coffee and chocolate for 35 days. The chocolate part wasn’t so bad. Sure, I wanted a chocolate pick-me-up every so often. But it wasn’t a big deal.
As for the coffee– I really, really missed it!
The first 4 days were a breeze. No headaches. No adverse physical symptoms. I was not physically addicted to the caffeine, apparently.
On day 5 everything changed. From that day, onward, I wanted my latte. I longed for my latte. I don’t believe I wanted the caffeine, but I did want the taste…and the comfort.
First, I substituted with various herbal teas.
Next, I bought an 11 oz bag of Teeccino Maya French Roast Herbal Coffee. I started brewing the Teeccino grounds in my espresso machine just like I’d brew espresso. This was much better…more concentrated, more like coffee. I made Teeccino lattes. Not quite the same, but not bad at all. Decent!
After the 21st day without coffee, I seriously had a dream about coffee. Is that nuts, or what?
In my dream, I chugged a cup of black coffee. (Funny, because I never drink black coffee!) I was immediately pissed off at myself when I realized that I wasn’t supposed to drink it. I’d ruined the whole challenge! At that point in the dream, I was also getting ready to accept a latte that someone bought for me. It occurred to me (in the dream) that I might get really buzzed from the caffeine of 2 coffee drinks, since I wasn’t used to drinking any.
I woke up glad it was only a dream!
After the first 20 days, I stopped counting every single day. That made it easier because the days didn’t seem to pass as slowly as when I was counting each one. I settled in.
Instead, I figured out the day I could have coffee again, and focused on it:
September 16, 2013
Tomorrow is that day. I made it! I survived without coffee. Physically, I feel the same. For me, there was nothing magical about giving up coffee.
Was it worth the deprivation? NO!
I found out that my daily coffee really does keep me in my happy place. It makes my good life even better. It makes life’s frustrations a little more tolerable. Coffee is soothing. I just need it to feel…content. Balanced.
I’m so glad I did this challenge because now I know without a doubt that I don’t EVER have to do it again. I found out exactly what I wanted to find out. Awesome! That’s the payoff!
Coffee–> I do declare:
You and I will never be separated again!